It’s been a month since I shared my story with my mom.
It’s been a month since my abuser took his own life.
It’s amazing what time can do for a person. So many thoughts and feelings have flowed through me in this time. For a while I didn’t think that it was okay to tell people that I am doing great, because someone has died in the midst of all of this this. I’ve learned that it’s okay to feel that way. I AM doing great! The freedom I have felt is better than anything I have ever felt before. I am free of the bondage that consumed my life, free of the strongholds that affected my walk with God. I’m not happy he is gone, but I’m not sad either. I do wish he was still here to deal with the consequences of what he has done. We all know that’s not going to happen, not here on earth anyway.
Now that I have shared my story, I can focus on my family. The depression I suffered from not sharing took a toll on my relationship with my kids and my husband. Depression is brutal! There were many nights that I would curl up in the fetal position and lay on my bed and just cry. It’s okay to do that every now and then, because it’s good for you to have a good cry and let it out. It’s when it starts to consume your daily life, when you know something is wrong and you need to seek help. Since I’ve shared my story with my mom, that depression has completely disappeared! I am so very grateful for the healing in so many areas of my life just in the past month. I look forward to what the future holds for me!
I have an AMAZING support system of family and friends. I am so very thankful for all of the prayers and positive thoughts from everyone! One thing is for certain, they have been felt! There is no way I could get through this without them! I ask that you continue to pray for my family, for all of those affected by what has happened.